I remember, but I am pretending I forgot, apparently, because I've been horribly inconsistent lately.
I can blame all of this inconsistency on the following:
- I am SO BUSY. (I've written about this before. But no one seems to get it.)
- My three diverse, delightful and devious children. (This is alliteration! Am now English teacher.)
- My mother. (She apparently comes over at random and stays for "a spell." which means she sleeps over for a week leaving a trail of chocolate covered raisins and tissues.)
- My many freelance jobs. (For the first time ever, I am not exaggerating! I am a freelance master and should probably hire an intern. This declaration will be followed by me being fired from each and every freelance job.)
- My extreme dedication to volunteerism. (although lately this has been just pretend).
- My other blogging commitments. (Vague. And potentially untrue.)
- Second grade homework. (It is totally more than 20 minutes a night. It is more like 20 hours and is psychologically exhausting.)
- Wine. (because of the homework. Although most writers write more when they drink. I simply fall asleep.)
- Spin Class. (I've been exactly 2.5 times. But I do spend loads of time talking about it, planning it, etc.)
- Lent. (I've been considering praying in a devout monk like manner daily. I have not actually been praying, but thinking about it, which we all know takes a longer time than actually doing it. )
The thing is, lately, my closeness to God has looked like this:
I've been very distracted. I've been too busy. I been too noisy. I've been hanging out as far away from God as possible, because he wants something and I simply cannot add Item 11 to my list (I mean WHO MAKES A LIST WITH 11 Items. It is nonsensical. You would have to then had 4 more items, which would be ridiculous.)
Ironically, it is week 11. Maybe God is trying to tell me something using fancy New Math.
Anyway, before I distract myself by Googling "New Math" and "Common Core," let me get back to the point of this whole year long Bible Study. This year, I am trying my best to sit at Christ's feet more than I do not. And I am failing.
The Good News is, there is Ephesians 2:13 to save the day:
But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far off have been brought near by the blood of Christ.
Thank God Paul wrote that letter to the Ephesians (whomever they were. I imagine they also had 3 children, a mother who stayed for "a spell" and wine, of course.).
So, I am good and can strive for this:
The truth, the Good News, is that even when I am far from God, he is not far from me. He is always my BFF. Christ made that happen.
So during Week 11 of Only One Thing, I am going to read Ephesians approximately four hundred times a day. I shall put it on Post-Its. I highlighted in my Bible. I am going to remind myself, while I am so busy listing all my busyness, that God does not need barriers or lists or pre-emptive activities or pre-planning. God needs nothing.
But I need him.
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