I am a bad Christian.
Everyday is a struggle to be a good Christian. The biggest struggle is to realize there is no such thing.
Here I am, on the cusp of 2014, following a year of transition--managing more freelance work, teaching more yoga and slowly changing from the anxiety ridden cancer-mom to a stable, firmly rooted mother of three healthy children. I pinch myself daily, but I don’t thank God enough. I don’t ask Him enough: what should I do next? I rarely stop and sit with Him. I imagine you might be in the same boat: filled with more this year; but missing something.
If you’ve read Yoke before, you will know I am moderately obsessed with the story of Mary and Martha. The scripture (Luke 10: 38-42) says:
38 Now as they went on their way, he entered a certain village, where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. 39 She had a sister named Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet and listened to what he was saying. 40 But Martha was distracted by her many tasks; so she came to him and asked, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to do all the work by myself? Tell her then to help me.” 41 But the Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and distracted by many things; 42 there is need of only one thing. Mary has chosen the better part, which will not be taken away from her.
To sit at his feet.
I have no idea how and when to sit at his feet, exactly. I have 3 children and a mortgage.
But, I intend on figuring it out.
This year will be the year of Only One Thing. I will figure out how to sit at His feet and it will probably take the entire year, plus a dozen or so more.
Give or take.
My hope is that this year will help me open my ears to his words and close my ears to my voice and the voice of everyone and everything else that does not serve me.
This is how my year of Only One Thing will roll:
- Monday mornings, beginning January 6, swing by Yoke for that week’s devotional (this sounds very grown up, I will really just select a Bible verse, write my thoughts and then offer a prayer)
- All week long, I am going to focus on that scripture and that devotional--I am going to make it mine.
- Then on Friday, I’ll let you know how it went.
And frankly, I have no idea how it will go. I tend to get busy (see post about how BUSY I am). I tend to get distracted. And I never finish anything, ever. And I want you to comment. I want you to share. I want you to discuss. I want you to help me. Because I have no idea what I am doing, exactly.
My intention is to shine his light in the world. I am certainly not the light, but I think maybe I can touch his light, just once in a while and reflect it into the world. Maybe.
Here's to #OnlyOneThing , because there is no such thing as a good Christian.